Too much?

after reading numbers 11...the first thought that i have is that am i asking too much from God when my life is actually good enough?

the Israelites were asking for meat after getting bored of eating manna everyday...this is the part that actually prompt me that maybe God is already blessing me with all the things that i already have now but i am still asking for more...

after a quick reflection, i realize that i got a close group of friends in church, university and secondary school...although small situations happen at home and i really dislike it...but I need a home to start of with to have all the small situation to happen...and I still have my grandparents safe, strong and healthy...I am studying in one of the top university that Malaysia has to offer...and I may have met that someone that I think I will spend my life together with...i got the bros and sisses in church....I got a car to go around....I got a laptop to be blogging about this....and most importantly I am still safe, strong and healthy to sit down and type this blog post out...

God gave me all those blessings and in return He just ask me to have Him to be the center in all the things that I do...and read His word constantly so that I won't stray away from Him....talk to Him daily....spread His gospel...so that the world can see Him in me....

and yet I failed at it...BIG TIME...God is already blessing me with all the blessings that I stated above and of course more...yet I still failed having the self discipline to do my devotion daily...and up to some point God was actually at the second place....although sometimes we tend to blame the busy schedule that we have...REALLY???!!!!! JUST 5 MINUTES IF NOT MORE OUT OF 24 HOURS JUST TO TALK TO THE CREATOR???!!!!!!

sometimes I feel really guilty when i think about it...then somehow will get distracted by something else then this matter will be pushed to the back of the mind...then it will be forgotten till the same thing happens the next time....

so I actually really thank God for having Pastor Charles to have the 30 days spiritual workout thing...and have the devotional materials posted in facebook....AWESOME...so yea...I am in the process of getting closer to God once again if not closer than before...

a song that came to my mind was "Consuming Fire" by Hillsong United....